Yes, I am now a blondish color. And Spence is back there looking like a badass.

Ok, back from Attack the Gatti tourney.  A lot of stuff happened, so yeah, let's dive into this one.

Friday: Was contemplating wether I should go to Houston because I was feeling sick, but Dave was on his way already, so I didn't want him driving out to pick me up, or to go down to Houston by himself, and so, Dave and I load up in his Kia at about 2:30 and start driving down to Houston.  Stopped at a Jack In The Box for some food about halfway there, and saw a giant Sam Houston statue.  We did get into Houston around 6:15-ish, and was about to go to Tara's until she told us she was meeting a friend at a local mall.  Dave and I head to the arcade to find the Pump It Up machine out of order, so that was no fun.  Tara comes and finds us, and we head to Case Ole to eat with her friend.  I didn't have anything to eat but the free chips and dip (wasn't too hungry, felt a little sick and whatnot).  Then, we head to the biggest Wal-Mart in the world, located in Baytown, to pick up some supplies.  After that, we kick it back to Tara's place and hang out and stuff.  We spent most of the night pasting stuff onto Code Red Mountain Dew cans to make them all cool and stuff.  Monica was there, and that was quite exciting to see her again.  Didn't sleep awfully well, but I slept a little.

Saturday: Woke up and took a shower like quickly.  Got dressed, loaded up, and headed to Mr. Gatti's for the tourney.  By the time we are there, I know atleast Mike, Airon, and Zach (dkboiboi, not Dallas Zack) are there. Saw some other cool people like Aimee, Geno, Walter, David, etc. 

As for Perfect Attack, I did win my first match, but for my 2nd round, I ended up playing Ross (who is an awesome DDR player).  As for that, I lost the first 2 songs, but wanted to play a 3rd with him.  It was PARANOiA REBiRTH on Maniac, and about halfway through, I felt really dizzy, and blacked out.  For being sick, it was a dumb thing for me to push myself to my physical limits, but I really wanted to keep up with Ross.  My body just kinda let up on me, and the next thing I know, I was falling to the ground; I tried to catch myself, and then, I blacked out again.  Thankfully, a lot of people were around the machine saw me start to fall, and were there to help me up and the such. 

Uh. . . after that, I did an impromptu freestyle to B4U (I was feelin a little better), and finished out the matches for the day.  Uh, watched Ross win the whole Perfect Attack tourney, while I ended up in 2nd place for Freestyle. ^_^ Won $45, which is neato to walk away with cash.

After the tourney, we all headed back to Tara's for bemani everywhere, some dreamcast stuff, and watched Attack the Gas Station. I decide I want to change my hair color, but after a messed up attempt, me and Spence head out to get some stuff to bleach my hair.  After bleaching my hair, however, I decided to keep it that way (will post pic later). Uh, later on, found a confortable spot on Tara's bed and fell asleep as others were playing Gituar Freaks / Drum Mania in the other room REALLY LOUDLY.

Sunday: Woke up to Tara elbowing me numerous times.  Uh, sat around and just played games all morning, then had a nice little BBQ and whatnot.  After the BBQ, Dave and I load up and head back to Dallas.

Yes, quite fun.  There was a whole lotta drama going on between members of the Texas DDR community, but I will not go into that, because I don't want to be put into a situation where I will have to choose between friends.  I don't like that at all.  Hmm. . . will upload a pic of my hair in a few seconds, and will be in the following post.

Yeah, down in Houston for Attack The Gatti (DDR Tourney). Be back on Saturday or Sunday. . .

Well, I went and studied calculus all night. I went with Will, Andrew, and Michelle to hang out at the Abbey to study and eat, hung out at their room, and then went back to my place to study.

Thing is, after eating at the Abbey, I started feeling a little ill / depressed. It just hit me at the wrong time, as it seems my efforts last night for my studies were in vain, as I stared at the test today, and nothing came to mind.

So, yeah, I failed my calculus test. Worth about 20% of my final score. . . and I need to keep that 3.5 to have my scholarship. I don't think i'm gonna be staying in Dallas for long. . .

Small college victory for today: Got a 25/25 on my Calculus quiz. Yea!

There was this Dance Dance Revolution tourney going down in Houston, and I wanted to go, but I have no ride. So a trip to Houston will have to wait till later.

Talking about Houston, a few people from Houston came up for the day on Tuesday. It was quite cool. We all just hung around and stuff at CyberZone before it closed, then headed out to their hotel room. Which reminds me, I need to go to Old Navy and buy this awesome messenger bag that was on sale for $10, because my current back pack is dying.

Um. . . oh yeah. Instead of using the school's crappy internet service, the whole room decided to split cable internet access. A whole lot better. I'm quite content. Now I can stay online for longer than 10 mins at a time.

Let's see, what else. . . Andrew/Will are planning a camping trip, and that sounds cool to me. We are planning to go maybe next weekend or something, after the week of tests that all of us seem to have.

Calculus test this Friday for me. Then I have a Computer Science II test on Monday, and my Exploration of the Arts Midterm on next Friday.

Hmm. . . I need to get some more ramen.

Ok. Time for a weekend update! :D

Friday: Well, after Calculus, me and Jeannette come back to my apartment. She enjoys my small bed as I work on my work for Freshman Intro class. She goes back to her place as I head to my Freshman Intro class with 2 mins before class starts. I'm thinking "Yeah, i'll be on time..." and I was, if the class was meeting in the regular room. I haul ass to the library and it sucked being late.

After classes, I just kinda dropped off my stuff in my room, and sat around until I thought Jeannette would be getting out of her Rhetoric class. I'm on time and the stuff, and we watch the Robin Williams HBO special on her computer. After that, we head up to Andrew/Will/Larry's place for some Smash Brothers. At about 6:30, Andrew, Will, Lauren, and myself load up to head to Cyber Zone. At Cyber Zone, I ran into Ash, Ali, and Ryan. Quite cool, and I played a little Para while Andrew and Will became obsessed with Samba De Amigo.

After the mall closed, we all headed over to Lauren's apartment, and that was fun too. I just got tired, and went back to my place to lie down.

Saturday: Woke up around 10:30 and started on school work. Made myself lunch, and just did more work. Around 6:00, me and David head over to Cyberzone for some IIDX action. I was expecting the regular meetup at CyberZone at RSM, but they all met at Valley View CyberZone. So dj baker was cool and picked me up. We all go to Genroku, where Aaron shows off his water-resistant pants by dropping water on them, then drinking it back up with his straw.

After the food, we all head over to the Magnolia for The Avenging Fist. The Avenging Fist was originally a movie modeled after the Tekken game series, but was changed due to a lawsuit from Namco (makers of Tekken). Needless to say, with last minute script being thrown together, IT SUCKED. After that suckiness, I got back to my apartment and slept.

And, that's about it. Ok. I'm done.

gummed up, brain dead and can't decide
you can't pray enough, you can't hide
you can be cool or you can cry
do it wrong
not it all
or do it right

no one owes you, no one's to blame
save for bad genes or dna
ask your conscience the why and how
do it then
do it when
but, do it now

what's up sweet cakes?
who's hip anyway?
earthgirls are easy
what you gonna do lil' buckaroo?
(hey you, you better ask her nice!)
all you gotta do, happy fool, is ask your mom

no we all can't be superfly
gq phd fbi
you can pretend or you can try
move ahead
lay down dead
or slip on by

when the truth seems so faraway
buddha loves you and jesus saves
you need answers for your dismay
ask yourself
ask your mom
ask dna

what's up sweet cakes?
who's hip anyway?
earthgirls are easy
what you gonna do lil' buckaroo?
(hey you, you better ask her nice!)
all you gotta do, happy fool, is ask your mom

seatbelts - ask dna (opening to the cowboy bebop movie)

small victory for today:

got an A- (90) on my exploration of the arts paper. woo~ :D

i haven't been able to sleep since i got here.

well, ok, that's a lie. i've slept like three times. twice was with jeanette, the other time was on the floor at lauren's.

but i don't think that is good for me, no?

new topic: i actually did well on my calculus quiz today! :D i was quite happy to actually know the answers to questions and the stuff.

uh. . . i have a history test i'm supposed to be studying for right now. . . and i'm tired.

yeah. and i have money in the back. so i don't starve now. and that's cool.

FUCK WOMEN. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM.

I'M TIRED OF THEIR GAMES.

I'M TIRED OF GETTING ALL THIS CRAP.

I'M JUST FUCKING TIRED OF IT ALL.

sorry for the lack of updates. school and all that comes with such a lifestyle of college is quite a boggle. hmm. . . where to start. . .

classes are starting to speed up a bit. i was able to handle calculus, computer science, rhetoric, and my us history class, but i don't like my arts and preformance class. i should have taken a humanities class instead, and not have to subject myself to such frustruation. i know for sure that i'm swinging an A or an B in the first 4, but in A&P, i belive i have a D. =/

i've been spending a lot of time not in my apartment, but in will/andrew/edward/larry's apartment. it seems to be the place to be, as we will either be playing super smash brothers melee, ddr, or watching movies. it's like 10~15 people jammed into a small living space, with atleast 5 wedged into the couch.

and with all the time i spent in there, my luck have it, i had a really bad breaking point a few days ago. thankfully, they have been very accepting about it (rather that some people back home), and it has made the bonds even better. which is very good. :)

i've also met this wonderful girl (who so happened to be at the apartment during my breakdown) named janette (please don't shoot me if i spelled that wrong). she's just so. . . good to me. like last night, i just didn't feel like going back to my room, so she let me crash in her room. sleeping with another person, just having her hold me all night just gave me a immerse feeling of comfort. the morning afterwards, i was able to get food from her roommates because i hadn't eaten the previous day (like all day...quite hectic day).

but alas, such things arise problems. edward seems also to be intrested in this wonderful girl, and i feel ackward when all three of us are in the same room. i dunno, she told me that she doesn't want to hurt anybody's feelings, but she has the same feelings i've had for her. . . so i don't know what to do. she went down to austin for the weekend, so hopefully something will happen that will make this better.

uhhh. . . the wireless internet in my room keeps going out, so as we speak, i'm in will's apartment, using their cable internet and all that good stuff.

and i'm broke and have no food. i'm currently very hungry and all that junk. i have like. . . 12 packets of ramen and some soda to hold me off until i get my next installment from my mom. . .

we had a "computer games and animation" thing these past couple of days at UTD, and i got to meet john romero and stuff. it was quite cool. i also got to touch his hummer. i also saw stevie "killcreek" case. :) that was even cooler.

so yeah, up to speed. i'm gonna go back to the crowd outside and start playing more smash brothers.

there seems to be a lot of these people. those who gave less than a crap about their country and their government all of the sudden kicked into gear after last year. i mean, involvement is good and all, but what happens after you're done?

most zealous people still have those damn car flags on their windows and getting everything with old glory stamped on it (some people have a doormat with the american flag on it. i refuse to wipe my feet on that. intead, i tracked dirt into their apartment.) but most of the american public return to what they were beforehand; people who didn't really care.

now with today coming up, people are gonna be nice, granted. but when was the last time a complete stranger was nice to you? more chances than not, it was closer to the 9/11 attacks rather than just two weeks ago.

i'm not saying we should ignore what happened. by all means, i beg of you to pray to your diety/god of preference for the victims of the attacks. but when was the last time the nation cried out for the lost souls of the firefighters who lost their lives battling forest fires the summer before? when did we think about the millions of men who lost their lives in all the wars we have fought. the persian gulf war was only 10 some years ago, yet we have fully forgotten those who perished in the front lines.

just be nice, pray a little, and we'll get by today.

can somebody please help me? i've lost myself. . .

this whole on my own college thing is starting to take a toll on me mentally. i thought college would be a time in which i could solidify my identity. i had spent countless hours sitting in my room, wondering who i was, and what i was meant to grow up to be.

and with all that goes on in college life, i find myself taking almost a new persona every day. one day, i'm the laid back, don't give a crap kind of guy, the next, serious about everything. i'm just lost within myself, trying to figure out what is me.

so, whenever you do find the person i am supposed to be, tell me so that i can talk to this person and figure out what i'm supposed to do. . .

yea for non-working alarm clocks!
well, i went out to play broomball with the sigma alpha boys and the kappa alpha ladies at the galleria yesterday. for those of you that don't know what broomball is, you get a bunch of people in their shoes onto an ice rink. give them all sticks with paddles about the size of your hand, throw out a ball onto the ice, and try to play it hockey like.

needless to say, i walked away with a few bleeding sores and bruises. got back into the room about..say..1 in the morning?

but what is the kicker is i had a 9:30 class this morning, and guess what time i woke up today. 9:20. i was smelly, and not even half dressed, but i got there on time, and i can care less what others think of me at that time. the professor gave me a weird look as i practically was running into class, while in some sleeping shorts i have, a t shirt, flip-flops, and my books tucked under each arm.

fun fun stuff.

now that i sit down and think about it . . . girls don't like me. they just don't.

take a convo i just had on the phone for instance:

dex: "hey, what's up?"
her: "what, do you need to keep tabs on me?"
dex: "not really, i just make a point to talk to you. . ."
her: "really? because i only call when i'm bored and stuff. . ."

. . . i should just give up, crawl into a hole, and die. it's not like any girls would notice.

why do i keep doing this to myself? thinking a girl would actually care about me. . .

but in the end, the are heartless bitches that just steal mine away. . .

my bad habits are coming back to attack me. i've had all of friday evening, saturday, and sunday to do homework, but what do i do? put it all off til today.

and, it's not like there isn't much homework. i'm behind 3 lessons in calculus 1, but that is mostly review. gotta read a few chapters in the MOST BORING HISTORY BOOK...EVER. arts and apreciation class is really sucky, although she does listen to good music before class starts. rhetoric is just a waste of time. and comp sci. . . so used to using CMU's pcGrasp that it took me a few hours to set up Visual Studio.Net to the way i want it to be.

but atleast my professors are cool. well, atleast most of 'em are. trying to have a convo with my arts and preformance teacher about her point of view will just piss her off even more. and the TA that "helps" us in our calculus problem section did even know what she was doing. >< yeah, i'm pretty sure i screwed up that quiz we took afterwards.

well, saturday, i followed my original plans, which i must say, attack the gas station was even better at the theatres than on my laptop. the subtitles weren't all that great, and i found myself leaning over to dave and telling him the true meanings of what the actors were saying. i guess that is what i get for being korean.

yesterday, i just kinda moped around the house, playing grand theft auto 3, gran turismo 3, and counter strike. nothing productive, whatsoever.

i need to kick myself into gear, or else i'll be on academic probation, lose my scholarship, have to drop out, and all that stuff.

i also need to kick myself into gear with girls and the such. torn between females is not fun, and consuming a lot of my time. =/

ok, i should probably start homework now...